I may appear to be a strong person who doesn't need a man in her life. Forgive me for having this stance, if you know what life threw on me, you would know exactly the reason why. But that doesn’t mean that I don’t long for someone who will hold my hands in the future when I face another struggle. I want to be with someone who will never leave me in those times.
Forgive me if I never back down to challenges for I was
raised to deal with them and see them positively. We may have a lot of
discussions and different points of view and I will spend hours debating my
point, but you should know that I just want you to understand me too. It’s not
because I want you to accept what I think of, it’s just that I want to voice
out my opinion to the extent of being tactless at times. But that doesn't mean that I will not accept
your point. I accept your point but like what I have said, I just want you to
see what my point is.
Forgive me if sometimes I am inconsiderate of your feelings and wants. Please know that when I am comfortable with you I say what is really in my mind and heart. If we are not close friends, I may be careful with how I deal with you. In some way I know it’s wrong that I forget how you feel when we are closer to one another. But with you, I know I can be my true self and I want you to be in your true element too. With that being said, if ever I hurt your feelings or if I upset you, please let me know because in my mind I thought you would understand. But that doesn't mean that I mean to hurt you. I would never mean to directly hurt people, especially you.
See! I will mess up big time. I am clueless with how to be your ideal girl. I am inexperienced. I am tactless. But I am learning. With each negative point you are giving me, I am giving a positive point to learning. I am a novice in this department and 100% sure that books could not help me on this. If you could not wait any longer (which I hope you will), I am sorry for not being your ideal girl. But I am not sorry for being me. Because someday, I will be better and someone will think of me being his “one”.
Forgive me if sometimes I am inconsiderate of your feelings and wants. Please know that when I am comfortable with you I say what is really in my mind and heart. If we are not close friends, I may be careful with how I deal with you. In some way I know it’s wrong that I forget how you feel when we are closer to one another. But with you, I know I can be my true self and I want you to be in your true element too. With that being said, if ever I hurt your feelings or if I upset you, please let me know because in my mind I thought you would understand. But that doesn't mean that I mean to hurt you. I would never mean to directly hurt people, especially you.
See! I will mess up big time. I am clueless with how to be your ideal girl. I am inexperienced. I am tactless. But I am learning. With each negative point you are giving me, I am giving a positive point to learning. I am a novice in this department and 100% sure that books could not help me on this. If you could not wait any longer (which I hope you will), I am sorry for not being your ideal girl. But I am not sorry for being me. Because someday, I will be better and someone will think of me being his “one”.
Anna, when you're no longer sorry that you're not the one, that's when you're ready to be the one for another person.
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